day 10 lockdown

I never thought that in my lifetime I would be quarantined due to a global pandemic, not what I had planned for the year. At the beginning of the pandemic I was fine (more like a false sense of calm), then when the lockdown was officially put in place I had multiple breakdowns. Mostly because how are you supposed to feel? what reaction is appropriate? I guess any reaction because so many things are being lost due to the lockdown.

We all in a state of mourning.

I can only speak for myself but due to the fact I am a waitress, I'm basically unemployed. Lucky for me my restaurant has sorted us out for at least a month, but if this goes on longer than announced I don't know what's going to happen to me. Which is fun. I love uncertainty. I've always had a job I never left a job without having another one lined up.

All the media I'm consuming are tips and tricks on being productive and honestly, it's making me feel bad. Now is the time to do all the things I've been putting off, but guess what?? I haven't done shit I've managed to do random things I didn't know needed doing instead of the stuff on my to-do list.

Things I've done:

🌼Dye my hair purple

🌼Made a makeup brush cleaning board

🌼Updated my laptop

🌼Watched the whole Tiger King docuseries

Things I need to do:

🌼Email my medical aid 

🌼Wash my makeup brushes

🌼Look for and do some free online courses

🌼Finish The Shining