august list

Sometimes a complete rebranding is needed, I keep doing the same thing. Going on hiatus for months then suddenly feel motivated, because I got my meds back after not being on them for a while. Go into a small depression, you know consistency. Unhealthy consistency but consistency none the less.



I don't know what I want this post to be exactly, do I want to get or deep and explanative or light and jokey or do I just do my favourite things post? I think the best post I could do now is a list of everything I want to accomplish before I turn 24, so over the next month. Nothing too complicated, simple but affect step to improve my life.

Because like dam..... have I gone off my path and I really need to sort my shit out. My job is so shitty at the moment that I can't even pay rent, my medical aid has been suspended, I'm always broke. The restaurant I waitress is just not doing as well as it uses to, so the money I make only covers uber, food and airtime that's it. Anyway, I didn't come here to complain, I came here to hopefully get my shit together.

🌼 Get a new job.

🌼 Remember to take medication every day.

🌼 Have breakfast every day, I need to start making small healthier choices.

🌼 Try writing in my journal at least once a week, I can get some of my overthought thoughts out on paper. Maybe I won't be so anxious.

🌼 Try and not kill my plants (revive a few). Buy some new succulents so I can become a plant girl and reach my final form.

🌼 Set out a budget and try to pay off debt before my birthday. Otherwise, my only birthday present will be paying off my debt.

🌼 I need to own up to my laziness and procrastination. If  I'm not gonna be upfront with people, I    need to at least be upfront with myself and take responsibility. I need to be like Amber that is from your own lack of time management and planning ahead. You failed because you didn't study, don't believe the lies you tell people.

🌼  I need to stop putting so much energy into my relationship and using it as an emotional scapegoat. I use it as an excuse not to put enough energy into other things. I make up scenarios in my head, then let myself get filled with anxiety. Then I can't focus and all I want to do is sleep. ( This does also have a little to do with no. 2 on this list, about my medication.) (I'm talking about my boyfriend.)

🌼 I need to write out a to-do list every day because I like to pretend that I don't have a lot to do.      When I actually have a laundry list of things that I need to do. I will only write 1 or 2 things on my to-do list because I know that I won't do 90% of the things I need to do if I write them all.            I need to do everything I need to do on the day I write it on my to-do list.